New parents lose 44 days of sleep in the first year of their babies life, apparently! I don't know how on earth they came up with that number, because it felt like way more than that for me. Im pretty sure that I lost about 360 days of sleep in the first year, and the second and the third...
Nothing prepares you for it, for the heavy fog of exhaustion that falls over you and doesn't ever seem to fully lift. For the feeling that your baby should have some kind of warning label 'May cause extreme tiredness, do not drive, do not operate heavy machinery'.
It turns out that partying hard in your youth, does not prepare you for the sleep deprivation of parenthood. How is it, that it was fun to miss sleep back then? We should have slept more when we had the chance, back when we had no idea what tiredness really felt like!
I'm nearly 10 years in now, 10 years of less sleep than I was used to, and still pretty tired a lot of the time, but I've got to admit that sleep is more plentiful than it once was; I'll never take it for granted again.
If you're still in the midst of the long, lonely nights, hang in there Mama, keep going and remember that 'this too shall pass'